Thursday, May 11, 2017

Thoughts for Thursday: Coffee Talk

If we were sitting down at a table having coffee together this morning, there would be a lot on my heart to share with you. A few things we would talk about: 



\\ I am really struggling with Walker's behavior over the course of the last week, and I'm pretty convinced that age three is worse than age two. He is being outrageously defiant and is waking up in the middle of the night {multiple times a night} saying, "I can't know how to sleep." Bottom line, we are exhausted and have tried everything: moving up nap time and pushing back bedtime; going directly from bath to bed; taking away screen time before bed {and lowering screen time to an hour per day during the day}; an OK to Wake Clock; a bedtime sticker chart; choices at bedtime; taking him to the pediatrician to rule out anything physical that could be causing this; and the list goes on. The Lord and I are spending a lot of time together these days because I can't do this myself. 

\\ All of that to say, I'm insanely exhausted and just really feel like I'm at the end of my rope. All I want for Mother's Day is to take a sleeping pill and sleep for a few days straight. {Kind of half-not-kidding.} 

\\ Along the same vein, we decided to put Walker in three days of preschool next year as opposed to two, thinking perhaps the three days would be better for our structure-loving child. We were planning to keep him at the current two-days-a-week in the fall and also send Knox for one day, but we decided to let Knox stay home with me for one more year and send Walker three days. {Because I can't afford to send Walker three days and Knox one. I wish I had a money tree in my backyard, but I don't, unfortunately. If you know of one's location, send it my way, please!} 

\\ Parenting isn't for the faint of heart, that's for dang sure. 

\\ I know those of you who don't have children are completely rolling your eyes at me right now, and that's okay. Skip down further for something that's perhaps relatable to you, or just click to another post. It won't hurt my feelings. 

\\ I don't understand the 90's fashion that's coming back. The high-waisted jeans, chokers and clogs can stay in 1994, please and thank you. 

\\ I feel like my house can never stay clean. We don't have a housekeeper, and I try my best to really deep clean one day a week while Walker's at preschool and Knox is napping, but I feel like the second I clean it, it's just messy again and sometimes wonder why I even bother. I'm so thankful to have a home to live in and clean, but good grief, it's frustrating to see all your hard work demolished in 2.67 seconds. #thisiswhywecanthavenicethings

\\ My Mom was sharing with me the need to unplug from social media, and I'm considering deleting all of my social media apps from my phone for a bit. I can say with full confidence that I'm addicted to my phone and need to do a better job of leaving it plugged in somewhere during the day. Why do I always feel such pressure to respond to an email or text or phone call or social media message instantly? 

\\ I was doing so well at reading before I went to bed, and when we got back from our Charleston trip, I got out of the habit and need to get back into it. Anyone have any good book recommendations? 

\\ I ran into an old "friend" the other day and it was awkward as heck. I put "friend" in quotation marks because that's exactly what they were: a surface friend. I'm just going to say it: at 30, it doesn't even bother me anymore when people talk about me behind my back, or judge me for my parenting choices {to my face or behind my back}, or not like me. You either like people or you don't; you either get along with people or you don't; you are either friends with people or you aren't. What's that saying? "I'd rather have four quarters than 100 pennies?" Strange though it may seem, 30 taught me a lot about who I want to spend my time around and man, is it freeing. 

\\ We are looking to move in the next 1.5-2 years and while I'm looking forward to more space in a new home, the change is going to be weird. Obviously we'll be moving to find a home closer to Brandon's job {or at least make the commute shorter for him}. We have established roots in our current town, and we'll be having to start over in a new place: a new town, a new church, a new school for the boys, new friends, etc. Moving definitely has its challenges, that's for sure! 

\\ My parents live four hours away from us, and sometimes, I wish we could just move home {or at least to a city closer to them}. It was hard being away from my parents before kids, but now that we have kids, it makes it really tough. 

\\ I haven't had a pedicure since December and my feet look terrible. #twokids #notime 

So, there's my random coffee talk. Man, it felt good to get some of that off my chest! Thanks for "listening!" 


Linking up with Annie, Natalie and Julie

10 comments:

  1. Lifting you up, Mama! May He give you all the patience, mental strength, love, and grace you need to make it through this rough patch!! And for little Walker to have peace in his body, heart, and mind so he can SLEEP!! (On a more shallow note 90s fashion needs to G-O and quickly!! But I would add overalls to your list - UGH!)

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  2. You know exactly how I feel about the behavior situation with walker. You are not alone! Hang in there. We will get through this! Moving sounds exciting and scary. Especially having to start over, but it will be a great adventure! I feel the same way ab being 30 and not caring anymore ab what people say. I'd definitely rather have 4 great friends than 25 eh ones!!

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  3. Sending you strength and great prayers my friend - we had the same issue with Ellie from December (and she's just turned three!) I am so sorry about your "friend" - I know the feeling all too well and it is not great!
    x

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  4. Oh surface friends...I feel the same way now that I'm older I don't care! Turning 30 things changed and I don't care anymore haha 3 years in and luckily nothing changed back!

    When I was away in Cuba I didn't bring my phone and it was a lovely break from social media and all that stuff!

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  5. Three was way worse than two for us! Hadley had always been an amazing sleeper and that went to heck in a hand basket. She still gets up multiple times a night to come into our room to wake us up and tell us some random detail from her day. After MANY sleepless nights, we ended up getting a little TV for her room and will put on an episode of a cartoon she likes to watch until she falls back asleep. That usually does the trick and she won't wake back up, and honestly, I don't care if anyone judges me for it.

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  6. I swear 3 is worse than 2 as well!! Hang in there it does get better. And an infuriating but true quote "this too shall pass" xoxo

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  7. Amen to this whole post! But especially about the sleep. Our almost-three year old has been having such a hard time going to sleep ever since she started preschool in January. Like, bedtime would take 3-4 HOURS and then she would wake up in the middle of the night with some urgent request. After talking to her pediatrician we've decided giving her some supplements at night and it's been a total game changer so far! (Although I realize this approach isn't necessary for everyone!) ALL THAT to say that I can relate and you can get through this but it is HARD and I feel for you (and myself)! -- Lisa | Naptime Chai

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  8. You are such an amazing mommy, friend. Keep your head up! This too shall pass. Text me in the middle of the night when you're up... I will probably be up too and we can have a little chat :) Totally agree about finding out who your true friends are. I am so over caring what people think and it's great. I know who my real friends are at this stage of my life and I love it.

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  9. I really enjoyed reading your coffee talk! You're doing such a great job as a mom - seriously, reading your post and Walker waking up and saying he doesn't know how to sleep... girl I can't even imagine. That has got to be so hard and Brandon travels so much. You are a rockstar!! I am definitely cherishing my full nights of sleep ;)

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  10. I don't have kids but I have two nieces and a nephew, and a lot of friends with kids, so I get how tiring it can be. I definitely empathize though. I would not do well with little sleep so I hope Walker starts sleeping through the night more. I have no ideas on what else you could possibly do!

    I do hope you find more time to read though! I love relaxing and reading a good book. Do you like historical fiction and/or mysteries? I'd recommend A Murder in Time - I'm reading the sequel, A Twist in Time right now, and I'm loving that one too!

    -Lauren

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