Wednesday, April 30, 2014

Well, Here We Are!


I'm sorry for all of the sappiness lately, and I'm sorry for my in-and-out posting, too! It's been a whirlwind two weeks…but as the title of this post says: "Here we are." 

First and foremost, thank you all for your kind words on Monday's post. It means so much to me that you would take the time out of your busy day to send me a quick little note of encouragement. Thank you also to my sweet friends and family for your sweet calls, texts, emails, social media correspondence and most importantly, prayer. 

I'm not going to lie, Monday was a really tough day, but we got through it. It very much helps that my friend Liz and I - who had our babies two days apart {at the same hospital and via the same doctor} - are sending our babies to the same daycare, where they're in the same class. Not only do we get to spend time together all day - right across the hall from each other, no less - our babies do, too. And it makes our mama hearts happy knowing they have a friend in their class, even though they have absolutely no idea. But we do. 

Monday afternoon, my boss let Liz and me leave early to pick up the bambinos. If I'm being honest, I put the petal to the metal and Speed Racer'd my way over to his daycare - which is only about one mile from my office. Seeing him after that long away from him {the longest I've ever been away from him in his life} was the best thing in the world. I picked him up, got some big time cuddles and kisses, and we went home. 

When we were at home, we of course had to document the day {ha!}, but we just played together and I loved all over him. 


And while I'm loving wearing "real" clothes again {hence my shoes below} and getting to be with my friends five days a week, I'm not going to pretend that it's a walk in the park. 

Pumping at work with no locks on your office door? Weirdest thing ever. {My sweet intern made a sign for Liz and my doors that says, "Please Knock! Thank You! :)" Because, you know, ain't nobody wanna see this!} Trying to rinse off your parts with two guys in your office? Just call me Where's Waldo wrapping all that up on my trek to the bathroom. Trying to figure out how in the world to cook dinner, sterilize said parts, make bottles for the next day and do the 5,001 other things that need to be done at home? It's a juggling act. 

But for me, the person who always wants everything perfect? Things have gone to the wayside. We're eating frozen meals that my grandparents brought us after Walker was born {and tonight it's leftovers, holla!}, but I'm not ashamed to be making hot dogs, spaghetti or sandwiches every now and then. {Thanks for that, Mom!} I've got clothes in the dryer that need to be folded; a living room rug that needs vacuuming so badly it's embarrassing; and dishes in my dishwasher that need unloading. But you know what? I'd much rather come home at the end of the day and talk to, play with and love on Walker than do any of those things. In fact, we've gone on walks as a family twice this week - and I'm hoping to make that three tonight - and it's been so refreshing. We're getting there.


It's a balancing act, that's for sure. But I will tell you, it makes me enjoy the little things {including evenings and I'm sure weekends} much more. Including his sweet little baby stretches when I take the swaddle sleep sack off of him in the mornings. I could just eat it up! 

We're figuring out a new schedule and routine that works for all of us. If you're interested, I'll be more than happy to tell you, though I don't claim to be an expert and it's definitely not perfected yet. The biggest helper in all of this is that Walker is - knock on wood, cross my fingers, do any other juju here - sleeping through the night, from 8 p.m. - 6:15 a.m. when I wake him up. I'm beyond thankful for that, because I know that's not normal, but especially for breastfed babies. I'm counting my blessings, that's for sure!


So, all of that to say, we're getting there. Do I miss my buddy every day? Yes. Do I know he's in good hands? Yes. {His "teacher" told me she sings to him on the regular - and she made us a little craft with his footprints on the first day - so basically I love her.} Is this hard? Yes. 

Baby steps. Tiny little baby steps.

Monday, April 28, 2014

…and then there were tears


Well, I dropped Walker off for his first day of day care this morning. And I'm sitting at my desk crying like - no pun intended - a baby. I think that was, quite possibly, the hardest thing I've ever had to do. 


I spent all day yesterday getting things packed; breast milk defrosted and into bottles; and clothes laid out for the next day. I was overwhelmed, but I thought, "Man, I'm getting this! Kicking some butt and taking some names." 

And then I rocked him to sleep. I didn't want to put him down, and I just kept letting my tears fall on top of his sweet little head. As stupid as it sounds - and trust me, I know it sounds stupid - I kept singing "I Don't Wanna Miss a Thing" to him and bawling when I whispered, "…watch you smile while you are sleeping/while you're far away dreaming…" 


This morning came, and I just stared at him while we were nursing, drinking in every single thing of his precious little profile. And then it was time to go. I cried the entire way to the drop off {thank the LORD that Brandon went with me this morning} and cried as we dropped him off. Brandon had to almost pry him out of my hands. 


I got a sweet text message from my Dad, and of course it made me cry I was so sweet, but he told me about the first time he dropped me off at day care and how vulnerable and sad he was. It's tough to see your Dad like that, and it just made me feel human.

So, all of that to say, I'm a little down today. I'm not an emotional wreck, but I'm sad. Someone wrote to me on Facebook and said, "Quality time is better than quantity of time." And that helped a lot. 

It will get better, slowly but surely. But until then, I'm learning it's okay to be sad. Mamas, just enjoy your babies. It goes by way faster than you can even imagine. 

Wednesday, April 23, 2014

Walker is Three Months Old!


I know I said I was taking a break this week, but I had to do this post! :)

Walker, you are officially three months old and I can't believe it at all! I think back to the day you were born and in some ways, I feel like it was so long ago, and in others, I feel like I just snapped my fingers. I guess it is true what they say: they days are long, but the years are short. 


Feeding:
Like last month, you are still eating every four hours, but the times will change once you start day care on Monday to the following: 6:15 a.m., 10 a.m., 2 p.m. and 6 p.m. with one feeding in the middle of the night {usually around 3-4 a.m.}. I will nurse you in the morning at 6:15 a.m. and then in the evening at 6 p.m. You will get 6 oz. of breast milk at each feed at "school" via a bottle. 

I was pretty religious about pumping 3-4 times a day while I was on maternity leave {getting anywhere from 2-4 oz. at each session}, so we have a pretty big stockpile. However, I'll pump during the day while you're at day care and give you what I pump that day the next day. Therefore, we can use the stockpile when my supply starts to dwindle. My goal is to nurse you for a year, but we will see how that goes! I'm starting with baby steps and making my immediate goal four months; then six months; and then a year.

So, all of that to say: you are a great eater! I absolutely love that special time I get with you to nurse you. You're my little buddy, and it's just you and me, and I love knowing that only I can provide you with exactly what you want and need.

You are still a spit-up machine, and your pediatrician has upped your dosage of Baby Zantac from .9 mL to 1.2 mL twice a day based on your weight. 


Sleeping:
Kiddo, you started sleeping all night on Mommy's birthday {April 7}! It was the best gift ever! We decided to drop the 10:30 p.m. "Dream Feed" cold turkey that day, and you didn't even miss it at all! You started sleeping from 8 p.m. - around 3-4 a.m., and went back to sleep right after that until 7 a.m. It was heaven! The pediatrician says that "sleeping through the night" is when a baby sleeps for 6+ hours during one nighttime stretch, and you're doing that…plus about one or two hours! 

Once you've started day care, we'll have to push your sleep schedule back a bit. Our goal is to have you sleeping from 8 p.m. - 3 a.m. {or later, preferably!}, and then back down until we get you up at 6:15 a.m. to eat. You'll likely take a cat nap on the way to "school" with me from about 7:15-7:45 a.m., and then you get a bottle there at 10 a.m., then you'll nap from about 12-2 p.m.; get a bottle at 2 p.m.; and then nap from 4- about 4:45 p.m. when I pick you up. You will probably cat nap in the car on the way home, and then we'll nurse at 6 p.m., then do bath time and bed time. 


Statistics:
We visited your pediatrician Tuesday for her to take a look at your head since you prefer your right side so much - regardless of how much tummy time we do or how often we move your head to the left. Normally we wouldn't have a three-month appointment, but I'm glad we did so I could have your weight!

You weighed 13 lbs., 11 oz.! We didn't get your height since it wasn't a "well baby" visit, but she did comment on how long you were, too! You are definitely an eater.


Development/Milestones/Firsts:
I'm going to put sleeping through the night first because we're so excited about that! You also found your hands and not only started sucking on them to soothe yourself, but you also move them in front of your face and stare at them; it's precious! You notice yourself in all mirrors now and give yourself the biggest grins, especially when we say, "Walker, where's the baby?" We will stand in front of our hall mirror for a good 15 minutes, and I think I'm just as entertained at the spectacle as you are. 

Your new thing when you talk to us is to say, "Gooooo!" and then you turn your head side to side while you screech and smile. Sweet boy, you know you make us laugh and your Daddy and I just love that! You were really mimicking sounds around two months, but this month you're doing it even more. Your Daddy swears he heard a "mama" the other day; I'll take it, even though I know you definitely didn't say it. ;)

You still love the ceiling fans and will laugh and laugh at them, craning your neck in every room to find one. I wish I was that easily entertained! 

You absolutely hate tummy time. I thought that would change as you got older, but it hasn't; you despise it! You will bury your head in the blanket/play mat/whatever we're doing tummy time on and just scream. When we roll you over, you give us the biggest grin - you know exactly what you're doing there! However, you are good at holding your head up when you're laying on our chests after a little cat nap or when we hold you over our shoulders. You also rolled over for the first time last month - to get yourself out of tummy time! Now you do it often!

You celebrated your first Easter in Mommy's hometown, where you got to stay at Papa and Foxy's house for the first time! Everyone in Mommy's hometown just loved you! You also got to meet some of your extended family for the first time. 


Clothes:
I moved you out of 0-3 months clothes on April 9, and it was so bittersweet for me. For some reason, not having the "0" on the tag of your clothes - and instead seeing "3 months" or "3-6 months" on your tags makes you seem like such a big boy and not so much a little baby anymore. We also packed away your newborn size Halo Sleep Sacks; you're now in their small size, which fits 3-6 months. 

The 3 months clothes {especially the Carter's brand} fit you perfectly, but the 3-6 months ones are a little long and baggy. Needless to say, we're wearing the heck out of Carter's clothes right now! 

You moved to size two diapers on April 12, and we still prefer the Pampers Swaddlers brand. 


Behavior/Demeanor:
I am sure every parent says this, but you truly are a sweet boy. I am so thankful that you're so happy, and I hope and pray you continue to have the precious personality you have now when you're older. 

You still love to talk {you get that naturally from your Mommy!}, but especially in the morning. You are definitely a morning person - again, just like me! - and we always get the biggest smiles then. Your Daddy and I love seeing little bits and pieces of us in you. For example, when you yawn, you let out a little "sigh" noise when you're doing it, and that is absolutely, 100% your dad. 

Like I said earlier, you know what you're doing with your little "cry" at times. You will let out a fake little cry and when we come running to you or are holding you and say, "What's wrong?!", you will give us a big grin. You sly thing, you. 

You are definitely a mama's boy, but I attribute that to me being home with you 24/7 for three months. And I'm alright with that! You can stay a mama's boy for as long as you like. 

Currently you love: ceiling fans; us getting in your face to talk to you; bath time; going on walks; and bright phone covers {you see a lot of these when we FaceTime with your Foxy and Papa or Daddy when he's traveling}. 

You do not love: being burped/spitting up; tummy time; or waiting for anything. You don't have a lot of patience! 


Nicknames:
You still have all of the same nicknames as last month, but your Daddy has taken to calling you "Skywalker," at which I just shake my head. ;)


Walker, we love you so much and are so thankful for you. 

My prayer over you is one your Foxy used to pray over me: protection, purity and punishment. Protection from anything bad; purity that you will wait for the perfect person that God has for you; and punishment that if you do something wrong, you will get caught. It might seem early to be praying this over you, but I want to cover you in prayer, my precious boy. 

I also pray that you will come to know the Lord and let Him be the ruler of your heart and your life. I pray that you come to know that no one comes to the Father except through Him {John 14:6}, and your Dad and I strive to be Christian examples for you in that. 

Finally, I pray for your future spouse, whoever she may be. I pray for her that she knows the Lord and that she will love you the way that I love your Daddy, and in turn, I pray that you love her not only like your Daddy loves me, but as Christ loved the church {Ephesians 5:25}. The best gift your Mimi gave me was to tell me that she began praying for me, your Dad's future spouse, when he was just a baby. And I pray I can give that same gift to your wife one day. 

I can't believe you're already three months old. We love you to the moon and back again, sweet little love. 

Love,
Mommy and Daddy 


Tuesday, April 22, 2014

This Week


I'm heading back to work on Monday after three glorious months off with our precious boy. My heart is breaking and I cry just staring at him these days, knowing I won't be with him 24 hours a day, seven days a week - and will instead trust his little life with people I don't know, but pray love him like we do. 

So as to enjoy my last few days with him, I'm going to take a short little blogging break this week - but I'll be back Sunday with the usual weekend + recipes from the week post.

Thanks for your understanding! I'm off to smother that sweet face with even more kisses than usual this week. 

Monday, April 21, 2014

Easter Weekend Wrap-Up


I hope y'all had a wonderful Easter! We most certainly did, especially since it was Walker's first one! This year, we decided to travel to my hometown in Southeast Texas to spend Easter with my family. My entire family of eight was home, and it was amazing: my brother from college; us from Dallas; and my parents, sister and brother who are at home. 

Friday:
Brandon got off work at noon, so we left as soon as he got home. Walker did wonderful in the car and slept the entire 3.5 hours there. 

{I was shocked! My only tips for traveling with an infant? Feed them and change their diaper right before you go, and put them in the car seat at the very last second. Other than that, I'm definitely nowhere near a pro.} 


When we were on the last leg of the trip, I got a text message from one of my brothers asking where we were. I replied, and about 15 minutes later, I got another text telling me that he and my Dad were following us…in my family's little two-seater plane! It was so beyond cool knowing they found us on the road, and they kept pretty even with us the entire rest of the 45-minute drive. I loved it! 

{PS: See those pine trees?! Ahhh, I miss them so much.} 


That night, my Mom made a great home-cooked meal and we all just hung out. My grandparents came over to see Walker, and then we all went to bed. 

Saturday:
Walker was up every couple of hours {blah}, so we were pretty lazy bums all day. I think he was just in a new place, in a Pack-n-Play and off his schedule, so it was just a long night for all of us. 

That afternoon, he and I took a little nap together and it was such a sweet moment for this mama. He's a pretty good snuggler. :) 


My mom and I cooked stuff for Easter lunch; some of my mom's friends stopped by to see Walker; and we just lazed around. My Dad took Brandon out flying and then took him and my brothers to shoot guns…quite a manly little weekend Brandon had. Ha! 

That night, the sunset was amazing, so my brothers, sister and Brandon climbed on the roof of my parents' rent house to capture some pictures. I stayed on the ground with Walker! {Why we are all wearing neon I do not know.}


I'd say they delivered on the pictures, wouldn't you? I love coming home, and one of those reasons are the gorgeous sunsets amidst the pine trees. Heaven will have pine trees and beautiful sunsets, I'm sure of it. 


Sunday:
After a much better night of sleep for Walker - and us {9 hours and 15 minutes, to be exact!}, we celebrated Easter! Walker was pretty unimpressed with his first Easter basket; apparently the lights were way more entertaining. He made out like a bandit between our Easter basket and his gift from my Mom and Dad {a swimsuit, swim top, baby flip-flops and a cute little plate with his name on it}! 


We went to church and then came home for a barrage of photos, of course! 

L-R: 
-Brandon, Walker and me {Walker was unimpressed}
-Brandon, Walker, me + my siblings
-Walker being unimpressed {a theme of the afternoon}
-My Mom and Dad, "Foxy" and "Papa" with Walker
-My sibs and me


{Yes, I changed dresses at the last minute! Typical.}

After church, we went to my Nana and Pah's house for a family Easter lunch. We had so much food - I barely was able to finish a sandwich for supper last night! - that I can't even list out everything. I'm sure I'll dream about that lunch for the next few days. ;) 

Anyway, my cousin Rebecca {pictured} and I are two years apart and grew up so close, and her sweet little girl, Audrey, is exactly one year and one day older than Walker. I was back in my grandparents' room feeding him while Rebecca was changing Audrey, and she was so interested in Walker, but a little jealous her mama was loving on another baby! I just love how close in age they are and hope they grow up to be friends like Rebecca and I did, even though they live in separate cities! 


After lunch and Walker's feeding, we left and drove straight home. He did great {again} in the car, waking up only 45 minutes away from home. I am so thankful he did well! 

I spent the evening unpacking, doing laundry and getting things ready for today, which is definitely a job in itself. As my Dad says, "Y'all have one little bag and Walker's stuff takes up the rest of the car!" It's so ridiculously true. 

Again, I hope you had a wonderful Easter and enjoyed celebrating our risen Savior! Happy Monday. 

Sunday, April 20, 2014

Happy Easter


I can't let today pass without remembering the true reason we celebrate Easter: Jesus Christ not only dying on the cross for our sins, but the true miracle - the fact that He rose from the dead! 

I always think of the song "Because He Lives" on Easter:

Because He lives
I can face tomorrow
Because He lives 
All fear is gone
Because I know
He holds the future
And life is worth the living just because He lives

I'm so thankful to know that we don't celebrate his dying - we celebrate his resurrection! He is alive and we serve a risen Savior! 

Friday, April 18, 2014

Five on Friday


Happy Friday to you! And thanks, as always, to the hostesses of this link-up: A. Liz Adventures, Carolina Charm, Hello! Happiness and [the good life blog]


-ONE-
I talked about this on Wednesday, but I'm more than a little obsessed with Drybar's Texas Tea Volumizing line of haircare: shampoo, conditioner and volumizing spray! I purchased it from Sephora when they were doing their big 15% off your entire purchase promotion, and I'm so glad I did. This stuff smells amazing! I love getting a whiff of my hair during the day - ha! I've mentioned my love for big Texas hair on this blog before, and this stuff delivers. Go getcha some!


-TWO-
I saw on April's blog about Red Stamp, and now I'm officially obsessed. It's a free app that lets you customize invitations, cards, etc. and send them via email right on the spot {for free}, or order hard copy invitations to physically mail. Of course, I've only sent them via email and just little cards with pictures of Walker to my parents and in-law's to say hello, but it's so fun and cute! And did I mention free?!


-THREE-
When I was trying to decide between two dresses to wear on Easter Sunday, I asked Brandon to help me make the final decision. Of course, it is me we're talking about, so they were both black. He came in the closet, looked at me dead in the eye and said, "Brittany. This is Easter, not a funeral. Don't you have a pastel or something? I mean, come on." Now, of course I do…but I just love black! {I'd probably be a good New Yorker, don't you think?} Anyway, I finally decided on this dress from Loft with some cute strappy {black} sandals, much to my husband's chagrin. 

But Brandon and Walker will both be in pastels! So, yeah. 


-FOUR-
As much as I hate to admit this, "Chrisley Knows Best" is my new favorite guilty pleasure TV show! It's such a mess, but I actually do think Todd - and some of his parenting choices - is quite funny. Especially when he threw his son's iPhone into the lake; or put a boot on his son's car; or has tracking devices in said cars. I made Brandon sit down and watch it with me on Sunday night and while I thought he would hate it, he did laugh out loud at some points - and that's saying a lot for my husband who always has comments about the Real Housewives franchises! Ha! 


-FIVE-
My mom made and sent me these monogram shirts for my birthday and I am just in love with them! Of course, she did a green and gold one for Baylor…too cute for words! I can't wait to wear these. 


Happy Friday and Happy {early} Easter to you! It's Friday, but Sunday's coming!

Thursday, April 17, 2014

Easter Basket Hop: Walker's Easter Basket


Happy Thursday, y'all! I'm linking up with Darci for her Easter Basket Blog Hop. 


Since this is Walker's first Easter, I went a little crazy with his first basket, as evidenced below: 


He's only 2.5 months old, so it was a a bit of a challenge finding age-appropriate items for his sweet little basket, which I purchased from Pottery Barn Kids


But I did, and here's what's in his basket {L-R}:

 Four Carter's rompers {Sam's} // "The Story of Easter" book {Target} // 
"I Love You, Honey Bunny" book {Target} // Carter's pajamas {Carters.com} //
Swimsuit {Target} "My 1st Easter" bib {Babies 'R' Us} // Bunny sippy cup {Target


I purchased this basket and liner right after he was born, and it was definitely a pretty penny…but I know he will use this every year for at least 8-10 years, so I guess it's worth it!

Happy early Easter to you! 

Wednesday, April 16, 2014

What I'm Loving Wednesday: New Favorite Beauty Products


Happy Wednesday! For this week's "What I'm Loving Wednesday," I thought I'd share with y'all some of my favorite new beauty products! Some of them are super cheap, some worth a pretty penny…but they're tried-and-tested and I just love 'em! 



1. I've told y'all about my love for big Texas hair before, and this stuff delivers! Plus, it smells amazing. My mantra is, "The higher the hair, the closer to God" {kidding, sorta} and I definitely have me some big ol' hair with this stuff. I purchased mine from Sephora

2. I saw on Pinterest this dupe for NARS Orgasm, and y'all: THIS IS IT!!! It is exactly the perfect dupe for NARS and costs about $35 less. I found this at Target, but it was sold out the first time I went to try to pick it up. Apparently others are on to this blush, too! 

3. This was also one I picked up at Target on a whim, and I love it. It's the perfect spring/summer color and is super fun. I currently have it on my toes and it looks great!

4. I got a bunch of Burt's Bees Baby Bee for Walker before he was born, and I could eat him up it smells so good. {Is that weird?} I found myself using his baby lotion and then started to feel bad for basically taking from a baby - ha! - so I picked up my own during a recent grocery shopping trip at Kroger. I found mine in the Organic section of the grocery store. 

5. Brittany at Perpetually Daydreaming blogged about this stuff before, so I decided to give it a try. Not only does my skin look smoother, it smells so good! {Clearly I'm a sucker for products that smell good!} It does cost about $23 for a tiny bottle, but I started seeing smoother skin and a more even complexion after about one week. I will definitely be purchasing this regularly! 

Have y'all tried any of these products? Happy Wednesday, y'all! 

Tuesday, April 15, 2014

Things I Didn't Know Until I Became a Mom


I will readily tell you that I was completely ignorant about life with a child before I became a mom. I know everyone says it, but I was that person who, upon seeing a mother wrangle a screaming child in the buggy with one hand while simultaneously chasing down a rowdy toddler in the aisle at Target, swore to myself: "That will never be me."

What I would love to say to that hypothetically blind 19-year-old at Target buying a skimpy two-piece bathing suit with money she didn't have? A big, fat: HA! And let's add another: HA! 

AmIright?

But it's true. There are so many things I never understood until I became a mom. As much as I thought I wouldn't be the lady with the screaming baby at a store…I have become her. Twice. And I know there will be many more times. As much as I thought I would have the baby that slept through the night from day one…I don't. He does a pretty bang-up job of that now, but he's almost three months old. So there's that. 

But what are some of those other things, you ask? I'm so glad you did. 


{via}

1. It truly does take forever to get out the door. 
Brandon and I try super hard to not be "those people" who - upon having a child - are always late to places and events. I was never late before I had a baby, so I try my hardest to not be late now that we do. But, it truly is a process to get all three of us out the door and on time, at that. Especially because I'm still nursing, so there's 30 minutes {plus the 15 to burp and wait for my spit-up-prone child to get it all out} right there. I've learned to just start getting ready as soon as I've fed Walker and laid him down for his nap, but you have to calculate him waking up early, not wanting to go down on time, etc. I'm telling you: a process. I've learned how to do my make-up in about five minutes, I'll tell you that. 

2. Stay-at-home mom's don't just sit around.
Oh, no. Not in the least. My mom was a stay-at-home mom and - until I had Walker - thought she and other stay-at-home moms had all the free time in the world. In my blind brain, I thought they could get up when they wanted; and I envied the fact that they never had to wear make-up and sit in traffic to and from work twice a day. But wowza…I was wrong. I've learned that half the time I don't put make-up on is because I truly don't have time to do it while tending to Walker. And that the dishwasher will always need to be unloaded. And clothes will always need to be folded. And sheets will get spit-up on. And floors will need to get vacuumed. And there's a baby that needs your undivided attention 24 hours a day, seven days a week. Being a stay-at-home mom is a full-time job in and of itself. 

I haven't had the chance to be a working mom yet - and I will in two weeks, don't you worry - but I can tell you that it's just as hard, I'm sure of it. You leave for one job and come home to another. I don't know how I'm going to do it. 


{via}

3. You can't just "run" anywhere. 
Before Walker, I would run to Target; or HomeGoods; or Walgreens; or…anywhere. Now, not so much. Like I said in #1, it's a process. I have to schedule my errands-running time around Walker's eating schedule…because Lord knows I don't want to subject anyone to more screaming than they should have to hear! And on that note, having a baby in a car seat for hours upon end just doesn't work. One hour? Yes. Four hours? Not so much. There is no more "running." 

4. Things have to be planned out. 
This goes along with not being able to "run" anywhere. I've never been a truly spontaneous person to begin with, so maybe this one is just me. But I can't just stop what I'm doing and go somewhere or do something. It has to be planned out - and around feedings, at that. I truly miss not having a baby and deciding at the last minute to go out to dinner instead of cooking. Now? Ha! I can't tell you how many times we have decided that and Brandon has then come home with our food instead of us going out to eat. Let's just add a subsection "4a" to this: I miss eating hot meals at our table. It never fails that when dinner is ready to be eaten, Walker wakes up from his evening nap, and I either A) End up letting Brandon eat first while I entertain him and then we switch; or B) Laying him on his play mat and letting him entertain himself with the mirror on it while I eat my dinner on the floor next to him. Never fails. 

5. Alone time is amazing. 
I truly didn't appreciate a kid-free shower, bathroom break or grocery store trip until Walker was here. So, when I get the chance to go to the grocery store alone, I soak it up. I feed him, hand him to his Daddy and am out the door. And then I take my leisurely time at Kroger, going down every aisle, marking things off my list as I put it in my buggy, and even smiling at people. I'm sure the other shoppers think I'm nuts. I never, ever thought I would enjoy the grocery store more. 

6. You will hear phantom baby cries. 
It's true. There are times I think I hear Walker and when I check the monitor, he isn't crying. Tiredness will do that to you. {As will a monitor frequency that picks up your neighbor's daughter. Ummm, yeah.}

7. Vomit, poop and pee {on your kid} are just another thing. 
I will readily admit that I can't stand hearing or seeing someone vomit. Even on TV or in the movies. It makes me gag, in turn. But when it's your kid? It's totally just another thing. I've been thrown up on, peed on and pooped on…in a span of about five minutes one day. Never did I ever think that would be my child, but oh no. It was. And while it was gross, it was just another thing. {Someone else's kid, though? Sick.} I quickly learned that if we're going anywhere, I get dressed last - and I throw my robe on for good measure. Brandon and I have perfected the art of holding the burp cloth just so. And we learned super fast to take a little boy's diaper off super slow. It happens. 

8. Grace is definitely something to be thankful for. 
After a particularly hard day - especially those where I find myself getting frustrated at a baby {it's not hard to do} for not latching correctly, or for not sleeping when I know he's tired - I'm thankful for grace. I'm thankful that God's mercies are new every single morning, and I've never been more thankful for God's grace. There are days when I just want to crawl back in bed, pull the covers over my head and start over…at 10 a.m. But I can't. So I'm thankful that tomorrow is another day and for grace that covers me. 


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9. You will never understand how much you love them. 
It's true. People told me this often, and I didn't get it. But it's true. And the crazy part? I love Brandon and Walker so much - but it's a completely different type of love. I never understood until I became a mom just how "Mama Bear" one can get. Someone told me they were sorry that my baby "was fussy." I almost reached over and slapped them. Shots at the doctor? I cried more than he did, I think - though that's debatable. Thinking into the future about playground jerk kids; a girl breaking his heart; and a myriad of other things? Makes me want to throw up. The love you have for this tiny person makes your heart want to explode out of your chest at times. 

So what about you? What did you not understand, learn or get until a tiny human came into your world? 

{Happy Tuesday.}

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Monday, April 14, 2014

Weekend


Happy Monday! We had such a great weekend filled with family and some great milestones for Walker. Brandon and I were talking early this morning and agreed that this was the first weekend in a while that didn't seem to absolutely fly by. 

Friday:
Brandon came home from his trip to the Northeast {yay!} and this is basically how Walker and I both felt about that. 


We picked him up from the airport, and when we got home, I practically threw Walker in his arms and ran out of the house to go to the grocery store. I needed a little Mommy time! Ha! {It's amazing how just 30 minutes at the grocery store - alone - can refresh you! Ha!}

When I got home, I made my family's famous meatloaf {I promise to post the recipe this week!} and we ate after we put Walker down for bed. 

Saturday:
My aunt {my dad's sister}, uncle and cousin were in Dallas for a birthday party, so they stopped over to meet Walker for the first time! 


In the afternoon, I got my very first post-baby massage at a new Hand & Stone near our house…and it was absolutely everything I dreamed of. I got the hot stone massage and added lavender aromatherapy. Holy cow, y'all. Not only did I have one hour to myself, but one hour of pure and utter silence! It was wonderful. 


When I got home, we ate leftovers and had some Saturday entertainment - airplane - with the little guy. He was a little unsure at first, but then decided he loved it. And I love that Brandon adores playing with him. I foresee a ton of wrestling, running and "playing" in our future! 


Sunday:
We went to church, where we had a great lesson from our pastor. We love our church so much! 

We came home and Walker found himself in the mirror for the first time! It was hilarious watching him "talk," laugh, smile and then play shy with himself in the mirror. I wish I was that easily entertained! 


My in-law's came over to bring Walker his Easter gift since we will be with my family on Easter this year; and my brother- and sister-in-law also came over with our niece to bring me my birthday present…so we had a full house Sunday afternoon! 


Brandon and Walker played, and then Walker laughed for us for the first time! He had given us a few screeches and sounds, but this was an actual laugh. I had him on my lap and was singing to him "I am a C-H-R-I-S-T-I-A-N" and he let out an actual laugh a couple of times. It was precious! 


And, his last milestone was completely, 100 percent sleeping through the night {4/13-14}! Brandon laid him down around 8:30 p.m. after his bath, and he slept until 5:45 a.m.! That's nine hours and 15 minutes! We could not believe it…we're just praying it wasn't a fluke. Ha!

I took this picture of him this morning and he just looks so proud of himself. ;)


I hope y'all have a great Monday!

Friday, April 11, 2014

Five on Friday


Happy Friday! Thank you to the lovely hostesses of the Five on Friday link-up: A. Liz Adventures, Carolina Charm, Hello! Happiness and [the good life blog]


-ONE-
Brandon has been traveling on business since Sunday, so I'm super happy it's Friday, because that means he's coming home today! He had to miss my birthday on Monday - which he was super bummed about - and I've been a single mama all week…so needless to say, Walker and I are going to be insanely happy when his plane lands today! 

I've been eating lots of Amy's Organic frozen meals this week and am definitely ready to have "normal people" food again! Brandon requested my family's famous meatloaf {I promise it's good}, baby red mashed potatoes, English peas and rolls for supper tonight, and I am definitely happy to oblige! I'll post the recipe for y'all on Sunday. 

-TWO-
Walker's newest thing is giving us big, loud screeches when he's super happy {which I love}. The other day, he was just talking to the ceiling fan, and my mom is convinced he's saying "Hallelujah" in this video. Ha! What do you think?

video

-THREE-
When Brandon is gone, I always find myself venturing into Target for just one thing. This time, it was "one thing": the stuff for Walker's Easter basket. Well, it's never just one thing for me…I came out with a new nail polish, a new cheapie blush to try and a bathing suit for Walker - which I guess I can justify by putting it in his Easter basket - plus the actual stuff I went in for. I swear Target puts something in the air that makes me want to BUYALLTHETHINGS!!!


-FOUR-
Since I go back to work in two weeks {sniff, sniff}, I am really thinking about my work wardrobe. I haven't worn my work clothes - non-maternity - in about six months, so I've really been evaluating and re-evaluating what's in my closet. Since we're heading into May {holy cow, already!}, which equals H-O-T in Texas, I'm having to put together and find cute, work-appropriate outfits that are also cool, without being too… "Hi, I'm a Mommy!" 

I love this look from Pinterest and am definitely going to have to put it together! I'm so going to miss my post-baby uniform of yoga pants and old college sorority/fraternity T-shirts every day!


-FIVE-
Speaking of going back to work, I've been busy getting everything in order around the house…because I have no clue what my new routine is going to be like with work, a baby and the CEO of the Whitacre household {yes, I went there}. I've been cleaning out Walker's closet and boxing up all of his 0-3 months clothes and transitioning his drawers and closet to the 3 months ones; organizing closets and deep cleaning things. I like to think of it as a little postnatal nesting! ;) Is that crazy?! 

-SIX-
Ohhh, I'm a rebel with number six today! Ha! But can y'all do me a favor?

I've told y'all about my mom's company HomeGrown before. Well, they're currently in a photo contest to win three months of free advertising in our hometown, which is a big deal in that little city! Can you follow this link and "like" their photo on Facebook? It takes two seconds, and I know they'd appreciate it. And while you're there, take a peek at what HomeGrown has to offer. 

I hope y'all have a great weekend!!!