Friday, September 16, 2011

Friday, finally.

It's been a long, stressful week. And it will continue to be that way until we leave for our one year anniversary vacation in mid-October.

I know everyone says they're stressed, but really, I am. I don't sleep {I'm turning into my grandmother}; when I do sleep, I dream {nightmare?} about work, I'm grouchy, my house has gone to pot, and I'm just plain tired.

I had a mini-breakdown yesterday, somewhere in the middle of leaving a meeting during rush hour, sitting in traffic for an hour, literally working from my car, having the sweet little Chinese pharmacist at CVS hold up my "medicine" and literally say loudly, "Ohhh! It essss-pensive to not hab babies!" and coming home to find out that our dishwasher decided not to clean our dishes.

So what did I do? Why, I did a few loads of laundry, cleaned the toilets, mopped the kitchen and bathrooms and vacuumed in my work clothes {because cleaning is therapy and apparently cleaning in work clothes is normal} and then promptly changed into my pajamas and plopped on the couch with leftovers, a huge glass of wine and the remote.

...and then didn't sleep last night. Fab.


I saw this verse on Pinterest today and it immediately caught my attention.

I am strong enough to get through the next few weeks. But then, that word dignity. Hmm.

Just for grins, I Googled it. According to Webster, dignity is "bearing, conduct or speech indicative of self-respect or appreciation of the formality or gravity of an occasion or situation." Funny, isn't it? It's how I handle myself during a situation. A stressful one. I can clothe myself in dignity the next few weeks.

And then that last part: "...and she laughs without fear of the future." I take that to mean that I should enjoy my moments now. I don't know what's going to happen in the next day, week or even hour. So God's saying here "Don't worry about it! Laugh now!"

So that's exactly what I plan to do. I'm going to unplug this weekend. Enjoy time with my husband. Clean my house. Make good meals. And laugh...without fear of the future.

Happy weekend.

{Photo via Pinterest}

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